I'm trying to remember the name of a movie and I can't.

I've never seen it, all I remember is that this guys is taking medicine, I think it was for a mental thing, and he believes he is a superhero.

I really want to see this movie. If anyone can help me out that would be amazing! Thanks in advance and have a happy Easter!

I just found out, like literally, a half an hour that Skins had a fourth season.

I was quite disappointed with the third season and am hoping that the fourth is much better. I'm not very optimistic though.

Also, I haven't watched the third season in almost a year... so I may have to re-watch.




One more thing, every time I use this icon I miss Chris all over again.

Hello, everyone. I'm sorry I've been missing so long. :P


I got my sweet laptop in today, so now I can just use my own things, when I want, without having to ask anyone anything. :)

It's a TOSHIBA Satellite A505-S6035 Intel Core i7 720QM(1.60GHz) 16" 4GB Memory 500GB HDD NVIDIA GeForce GT 330M NoteBook. It's soo sexy. :)


I'm not sure what I wrote about last, but I'll try to remember.

I'm now in my second semester of college, all is well.
I'm still dating Jake. He has brain washed me and I am now playing Everquest 2. (It one of the reasons I got this sweet ass computer.)

I went to visit his Mom and Step-dad down in Virginia back during winter break. I flew down, solo, on New Year's Eve and got stuck in Philly. I was supposed to be in Richmond by 9:30am but I didn't get there until 5. I left the Philly airport, took a $30(!) cab ride to the train station, got on a train to DC and then Jake picked me up and we drove 3 hours to his house. It was quite the day considering I had never traveled by myself and the last time I was in an airport I was 2.

After we drove the 10 hours back to NY a week later he decided he was going to ask me to move down there with him. I pretty much freaked out for three days to myself and then blew up on him. He didn't really understand why I wouldn't just do it, I guess. But now, months later, we have decided that we are going to get an apartment in Auburn in June and then move down to VA in December. I'm excited. When he told me he wanted me to moved down I was so scared I just broke down, but I've gotten used to the idea, it's a lot more planned out and I'm not so scared anymore.



I'm doing much better in school this semester I think. I'm not as stressed this time around and I feel a lot better about the work I'm putting out. I'm happy and ready to do things with my life. I know that sounds silly because I've just started college, but it's true.


So, how's everyone else doing? :P

11 hours and I'll be 18!!


Fuck yeah!

Oh, here's something awesome before I got to sleep.

I'm turning 18 in 8 days.


Even better, financial aid comes out 3 days before that!

I'm going to a strip club, y'all in?!

Omg, you guys.

I had to make a wordpress blog for my English class and I haven't been able to get on it for like two weeks and I was just trying to figure out the fucker for the past 45 minutes.

I finally got it, but Jesus H. Christ, wtf.

I'm so behind in this class. They stuck me in English 101 Honors because that was the only 101 open. I'm being pulled by my hair behind the bus that is English 101 Honors.




I donno what I'm going to do. :P Alls I know is I'm not going to flip about it. I just need to go talk to my teacher some more.




Update on Jake and I, I know it's new and all, but he's pretty great. I mean I've know him for almost a month and I really like this guy. TMI warning!! I was a 'good girl' until last weekend. I slept at his house last weekend and we were fooling around and I asked him what he really felt about me and he really didn't want to say it because this is so new, but he said he thinks he is falling in love with me.

"Say it. You know what I want to hear." -Me.
"Say what?"
"Only say it if you really mean it or else I don't want it at all."
"The SPECIAL words?!"
"Only if you really mean it, Jake!"
"................. I think I'm falling in love with you."
"Oh, Jake!"

I talked to him about it a couple days later and told him I didn't think he was the type of guy to say such a thing just to get in my pant and asked him about it. At the time we were watching a South Park(his favorite show XD) episode just cuddling. He looks me in the eye and says well if I only wanted to get in your pants what would we really be doing here now?

I really like him, you guys.






Now my REAL problem is following through with all of this homework! Ahhh! X_X

I went to a little party at a few of my college friends' apartment last night. No biggie. So, I told Jake I was going to drink, but no pot. And he just wanted me to make my own decision, you know?

So, it's like 11:30PM and I get a call from him saying his meeting is over and he is driving home. Well, the apartment I was at is literally a block from his house, so I told him to swing by and I'd go out and leave everything in.

He came and I got into his car and intimately threw my hands over my mouth and asked for gum saying I don't want him to smell it on me.

He says sure and gives me a piece, but said he could already smell it and I didn't matter to him if I did things I wanted to. But I felt like a total cunt. And then one of the drunk guys comes out and starts talking to us and I'm almost screaming 'get inside!'

I can't remember exactly what he said, but the way he started off sounded something like 'we need to talk' type shit. I cover my face with my hands and say how I'm quitting all of this on my birthday, the 10th.

He tells me that his sponsor thinks I'm a horrible idea and he should practice saying no, and start on me. He wanted Jake to test me. Jake said that he didn't give a fuck about that shit. Oh and there is on open meeting tonight at the place where he went to rehab and his sponsor think I shouldn't go. So, I asked Jake, "Do you want me to go?"
"I don't care."
"No! Yes or no."
"If you want to go you can..."
"No, Jake! Yes or no. It's totally fine with me if you say no. That okay. I just don't want to push you into anything."

I think I got a yes, eventually.

I kept telling him that if he need to practice no, try on me I won't be offended. But I also told him multiple time that if he ever feels any energy going from his recovery to me just walk away. I would never want to make anyone relapse. I told him I'm not that special, I'm sure somewhere out there there is another girl like me and if I'm too much stress or anything, just walk away. If it's to keep him safe, I would prefer for him to be away from me.


Earlier that day, we went up to his grandfather's house and his grandpa took me on a right in his gorgeous convertible with a Mercedes engine and 6-speeds, it was amazing. Jake and I also took their golf cart out and went in the woods.
But, I told him earlier that day that I didn't know how to have fun without being out of my head, until I met him. And I'm not changing for a boy, like to make anyone like me better. I'm just changing because I'm learning new ways.


You guys, I really like him. I just don't want to get fucked over in the end. And I don't want to hurt him, ever. :( I'm scared, I don't like relationships... they never end well for me. :P

He scared the shit out of my the way he started that talk, but in the end it was nice.

I haven't posted anything in a really long time...

I started college.... and it's just a little overwhelming.

I have made so many new friends and I just love it.

I have one class on Sunday and the first Sunday was Labor Day weekend and I wasn't sure if I had class or not. So there I am, music blaring, pulling into the parking lot and there are like five cars there. So, I pull in one space away for a blue car. I look over and there is this really cute guy looking confused and a little anxious. He rolls down his window and is looking at me, so I roll down mine and smile.

"Are there any classes today?"
"I really have no idea. Let's check the doors. "
"Okay."

We get out of our cars and walk over to the doors that are, in fact, locked.
Walking together back to the cars.

Me, "Alright, cool. No class. I'm Julia, by the way."
"Hi, I'm Jake"
"Hi, Jake. Do you smoke pot?"
"Actually, I'm a recovering heroin addict, so I don't do any drugs anymore."
"Oh! We'll I'm glad you got help. :)"
"Yeah, I knew I was either going to kill myself or going into rehab on my own."
"Wow, that's really great that you chose to go. Most people don't do that. Well, do you smoke?" Pull out my Newports.
Chuckle, "Newports, nice." Pulls out his Newports.
"Lol! That's so funny."

We talked for about 15 minutes and he is a really great guy. That was two and a half weeks ago. We have hung out like six times since then and I donno guys, I don't want to jump into this too fast, but he is so amazing. We have the same type of personality, music preference, and movie loves.

My parents when to the Salvation Army camp this past weekend and took my little sister with them. Danielle and I went to the drive-in and Jake joined up during The Ugly Truth, the second movie of three. I invited him to sleep over that night and he did.

I have not told anyone in college that I'm a virgin on purpose. When I told Jake on Friday he chuckled and said, "I'm going to jail." That made me laugh really hard. I told another one of my guy friends and he did not believe me and then when he did, he told me he would not talk the way he usually does around me. That pissed me off.

I just didn't want to scare Jake off and I think it did, at least a little.


I really don't want to get fucked over again. I know he isn't that kind of guy, but I don't want to hurt him or me.



Sorry this turned into a fucking chapter. :P

This was on my English professor's blog.